Paranoid??? i think NOT.

BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!
BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!
BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!

Time check: 4:15am
Phone check: No missed calls
Reaction: WTF!!!

BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!
BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!
BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!

Phone stare: still no missed calls
Ear signal: No sound except the banging
Reaction: loud hiss(yep I want u to hear me)

Since when did people stop calling before coming over at odd hours??. I NEVER answer the door if I don't know who exactly is behind it. You can call me paranoid, but I choose to go with safe. The things that happen in my world nowadays are too scary for me to act otherwise. I mean some days back, a friend of mine went through an ordeal that is too sad to write about. Security is heavily important. I know where I live and the kind of security we have. The lady that's supposed to be our "security person" is even weaker than I am. My door is the only obstacle I have. Why do you think I'll be in a haste to open that when you haven't identified yourself. I've got a knife too and yes I can use it. I even considered getting a pistol once but the procedure was just too long. It terrifies me at times when I think about tomorrow. I'll soon be by myself in the "real world" and I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I really wish I could go back to being a kid but then if wishes were horses,...... :(.

I know I'll be fine though. My dad has taught me how to take care of myself. He can kill a man with his fingers hehe!! I actually thought that was sexy when I found out. Maybe I have problems :). He has refused to show me how though but its only a matter of time :D. On a serious note though, the issue of security cannot be stressed enough. Nothing is too much for your safety. We only get to live once unless ofcourse you are into reincarnation but then you can only come back so many times. You've still got to be safe.